I can’t do this any longer. I wasn’t able to update yesterday as I was having a mental breakdown. All of this that has been happening is really overwhelming. However, I don’t think I can continue any longer. I’m not sure how I’m suppose to express how I’m feeling and to put it to words. But I just can’t go on with this. It wasn’t what anyone did or didn’t do. Or maybe it was? However, I just truly believe it’s just not my time. As it’s said in Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 :
A Time for Everything
For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven: a time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted; a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; a time to seek, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away; a time to tear, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; a time to love, and a time to hate; a time for war, and a time for peace.
So this is probably not my time yet. However, whenever it is, I’ll make sure it will be proper. Yesterday many things happen. I visited a Parish with Maan and Cha under the Veritas radio station for a show that’s also under CFC that I think it’s called “Premyo mo, Premyo ko”. It is where they visit parishes that are having their feast day and have some activities with the church goers there. After the event, we had some lunch and went straight back to GMC. In the evening, I joined the CLP at one of the chapel. Apparently it wasn’t as nearby as I was told. But anyway, it went well. We had a slight problem though as we had a language barrier, but I hope it wasn’t that much of a burden, in their end for that matter.